On the eve of 30
I turn 30 years old tomorrow. I can't quite believe it. Where the hell did my 20s go? It's like the most massive change for me, and I won't lie - the number has been the biggest stress. 30 is a turning point. It is a transition from my carefree, 'whatever happens - happens' 20s. I have spent the last decade avoiding settling, doing what I wanted, and generally living a somewhat selfish life. It is easy to think about the things I wish I had done. Believe me, there are many. But hitting the big 3-0 has also made me think about what I have achieved. It is bizarre to think about me, this time 10 years ago. I really didn't have any idea back then, and god, what I have done since, I am thankful for.
- I nailed an BA and MA degree, which ironically I look back on now and can't believe I had the commitment to finish. (Side note - I have to meet Atom Egoyan...the guy shaped a part of my life, without knowing it, which makes me a stalker...yeah, forget this line).
- I emigrated to Canada. Granted, I was supposed to be here for 3 months back in 2004, but I survived the HIDEOUS immigration process that took 2.5 years and a berjillion $. I also became a Canadian citizen. OK, so I am not a fan of swearing allegiance to another flag when my own is perfectly adequate, but actually finishing the whole process, actually becoming a dual citizen after years of working towards settlement was quite the experience.
- I love Toronto. But - I moved to Vancouver for a year. I wasn't a fan and I didn't enjoy it. Looking back - hell I am proud it did it.
- I've traveled and seen so many new things and met so many new people. I'll never tire of it and it is fascinating to see what it has taught me about the big wide world.
- I've forged a career in Canadian television for myself. I've worked as a reporter for the Toronto International Film Festival, I've written for the Biography Channel, I've co-hosted The Lab with Leo, I've hosted/AP'ed Oasis HD, I've traveled across Canada shooting for NCC...I've been lucky, and I've also worked my arse off.
- I've met some lovely, beautiful people. I heart my friends.
- Distance is crazy difficult, but family ties are stronger than anything.
- But most importantly...my 20s brought me to H. He's the best thing ever. It may sound full-on, but jeez..thank god for everything that brought me to him. He's awesome. He's fun. He's the best roommate ever. He's my travel partner. He's the best person to go grocery shopping with. His humour is as 'hilarious' as mine. He's perfect to waste the weekends with. He thinks Jamie Oliver is great. He'll wear an England jersey with pride. He'll consume my retarded vegetable and water diet and pretend he likes it. He comes home to Cambridge with me without question. He weirdly finds Jonathan Ross and Ricky Gervais more amusing than his own culture. He just fecking gets it. He's bloody, bloody lovely, and worth every moment of heartache of being continually homesick.
Kate at 30 is bloody different from Kate at 20. When I wake up tomorrow morning (and head to Chicago for a long weekend, which is a whole other post), things will feel different. But despite hating the concept of 30, jeez, I am DAMN proud of how I got here.











